I’ve spent the last couple of days trying to sort out episode 4X21 of Glee —- Wonder-ful and how I feel about it.
As I Klainer there were a lot of scenes I didn’t enjoy. Kurt was distant with Blaine and saying he was becoming okay with that, in the voice over. No, I didn’t like that at all.
But I thought a lot about the context of the episode and read some other people’s analysis and here is what I came up with.
This episode is a cross-roads for Kurt or at least for his personal world view. Is the world a fundamentally good place where good things happen or is it a bad place that will just be a series of disappointments, especially people leaving him and letting him down?
In the first half of the episode, up until the good news of Burt’s cancer being in remission, Kurt is bracing for a world that is fundamentally bad.
In this bad world, Kurt is alone. His father is gone. He can’t trust the love of his life to have his back, and protect his heart. Kurt needs to find any way he can to cope with all the crap that is coming his way on his own because he is on his own.
When Kurt sees Blaine, he realizes that he’s moving on. (Yes, I hate this, but it is what was presented.) It doesn’t hurt so much to see him and he is not even sure how he feels about that. He doesn’t need anyone, even Blaine, in the bleak future of loneliness that he is bracing for. He isn’t happy, he is braced.
The scene in the coffee house, Kurt doesn’t reach out to his friends or Blaine. He quietly goes along with the ritual he has created to help keep him going. His friends aren’t letting him go but they aren’t in his head. They give their support and he tries to take it, but it doesn’t really penetrate.
During Superstition, Blaine literally chases Kurt, others have said, “puppy like,” across the stage. This is thrilling, but not surprising. We know Blaine is all in. The key to this scene is Kurt backing away, not letting himself be caught. Keeping from being vulnerable.
Then the world changes. The event happens. Burt is in remission. I am so glad this is how it went. My father has had cancer three times. It has been caught early each time and treated. He is alive and well. So this was believable to me. When people go in for regular checkups so it gets caught early, cancer can be cured.
Suddenly, the world isn’t a place that always dishes out crap on Kurt. Sometimes, things do work out and people stay. He shows us this by singing You are the Sunshine of my life, to Burt, in the choir room. The fact that it is in the choir room is significant and Kurt tells us this. He talks about the last time he sang in honor of Burt in that room, back when Burt was in the hospital, another time when Burt might have left.
But now Kurt sees there are second chances. Kurt didn’t need a second chance on life, he wasn’t dying. But he needed a second chance on living and connecting with others.
The next time Kurt and Blaine interact is Blaine’s question in front of the locker. We knew he wanted to propose. Kurt didn’t know what Blaine wanted to ask but he was open to whatever it was. He is ready to consider second chances now.
He looked almost eager for what Blaine would ask and it was an easy yes. Stay for Regionals. People can stay in his life.
Then he initiates contact with Blaine, grabbing his arm, and acknowledges what a good week it had been. What started as stressful has now changed.
Then they do another dance number. This time when Kurt comes on the stage, Blaine isn’t pursuing him because he doesn’t have to. Kurt heads for Blaine and joins him at the microphone.
This all gives me hope for the future of Klaine. However, we have one episode left this season. I want them to get back together in this episode. Unfortunately, I’m guessing we will get a question, with no answer. It will be a cliff hanger and we will all suffer until the premiere.