judearaya:

I feel like this might be a dailing log of WTF why am I doing this in my life. 

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Been there. Oh, have I been there.It seems like everyone’s kids are better behaved than mine.

I’ve been reading this book that seems to be helping: Honey, I Wrecked the Kids. The author takes a bit, building up the arguments about why it’s a good technique, before she gets to the techniques, but it was worth the wait.

I’m actually re-reading it now so I can absorb more. There’s a lot of good stuff in there.

Anyways, hugs and good luck. You are not alone.

I was watching the Glee finale when the recording cut out. For reasons that are too stupid I couldn’t just flip to live TV.

Where did it cut out you ask? Wemma had just gotten married and the camera had panned to Blaine’s face like something was gonna happen and then nothing.

I tried not to panic. I pay to get the Glee videos on Amazon On Demand. I would have those last few precious moments, when I was sure something both Klaine and cliffhangerish would happen, first thing in the morning.

Except I didn’t. Amazon didn’t have the video. I checked in all Friday and still nothing. Finally Sat at 10am I was able to see that lovely final scene with the camera panning back and Blaine with the box in his hand.

I had to avoid twitter and tumblr. I didn’t want to be spoiled. I wanted to see it for myself and I’m glad I did.

But the pain of waiting…

keep-calm-and-klaine:

if you had the chance to do one of these… what would it be…

• See Chris Colfer shirtless for one minute
• talk to him for 1 hour
• talk to Darren for one hour
• talk to them both for half an hour
• hug one of them for 5 seconds.
• hug both of the at once and get dragged away, kicking and screaming!

Reblog and put your answers or send me a message.

Talk to Chris Colfer for 1 hour.

thehpalliance:

glaad:

Delaware becomes the 11th state to approve marriage equality! 

Congrats to the Wizard Hat State!

purplehairedwonder:

sothinky:

teiledesganzen:

comingupkurt:

Usually I get pretty bad second hand embarrassment when Kurt “performs” in this manner, but this was so full of joy that I essentially kicky-feet and blubbed through the whole thing.

At first I was like, wow, this performance is very much not well-done and this choreography is ridiculous in a nad way *cringe*.

But now I am all like, look, Kurt Hummel gets to relax and let his guard down and be silly in front of all those people and he directs them to be silly with him and they happily comply (even Kitty whom he snapped at so harshly, but then Kitty would understand bitchiness as self-protection) and he still gets to show off that he’s working on new dance moves but he isn’t quite there yet so it looks a bit silly (and this part is also symbolically about Blaine) and his dad has to help him up or he will fall onto his face in a very inelegant way *squee*.

He’s being playful, after a year of trying so hard to be a grownup. It’s nice to see, but yeah, originally I thought the performance was odd (especially considering all the mentoring). But it’s meant to be silly and light and fun.

I think it’s nice to see him feeling like he doesn’t have to be a grownup, not when he’s back at home and knows his father is going to be okay. He goes back to the high school, a place where we’ve seen a lot more play this season.

I was surprised that he asked his dad to help him up at the end but I actually think it was really cool. It was Kurt showing that he believes people will be there for him and he doesn’t have to do it all alone.

Am I the only one who thought it was weird that Mercedes gave up a record deal because she wouldn’t take off her wrap in a photo shoot and to celebrate she takes off her coat?

I’ve spent the last couple of days trying to sort out episode 4X21 of Glee —- Wonder-ful and how I feel about it.

As I Klainer there were a lot of scenes I didn’t enjoy. Kurt was distant with Blaine and saying he was becoming okay with that, in the voice over. No, I didn’t like that at all.

But I thought a lot about the context of the episode and read some other people’s analysis and here is what I came up with.

This episode is a cross-roads for Kurt or at least for his personal world view. Is the world a fundamentally good place where good things happen or is it a bad place that will just be a series of disappointments, especially people leaving him and letting him down?

In the first half of the episode, up until the good news of Burt’s cancer being in remission, Kurt is bracing for a world that is fundamentally bad.

In this bad world, Kurt is alone. His father is gone. He can’t trust the love of his life to have his back, and protect his heart. Kurt needs to find any way he can to cope with all the crap that is coming his way on his own because he is on his own.

When Kurt sees Blaine, he realizes that he’s moving on. (Yes, I hate this, but it is what was presented.) It doesn’t hurt so much to see him and he is not even sure how he feels about that. He doesn’t need anyone, even Blaine, in the bleak future of loneliness that he is bracing for. He isn’t happy, he is braced.

The scene in the coffee house, Kurt doesn’t reach out to his friends or Blaine. He quietly goes along with the ritual he has created to help keep him going. His friends aren’t letting him go but they aren’t in his head. They give their support and he tries to take it, but it doesn’t really penetrate.

During Superstition, Blaine literally chases Kurt, others have said, “puppy like,” across the stage. This is thrilling, but not surprising. We know Blaine is all in. The key to this scene is Kurt backing away, not letting himself be caught. Keeping from being vulnerable.

Then the world changes. The event happens. Burt is in remission. I am so glad this is how it went. My father has had cancer three times. It has been caught early each time and treated. He is alive and well. So this was believable to me. When people go in for regular checkups so it gets caught early, cancer can be cured.

Suddenly, the world isn’t a place that always dishes out crap on Kurt. Sometimes, things do work out and people stay. He shows us this by singing You are the Sunshine of my life, to Burt, in the choir room. The fact that it is in the choir room is significant and Kurt tells us this. He talks about the last time he sang in honor of Burt in that room, back when Burt was in the hospital, another time when Burt might have left.

But now Kurt sees there are second chances. Kurt didn’t need a second chance on life, he wasn’t dying. But he needed a second chance on living and connecting with others.

The next time Kurt and Blaine interact is Blaine’s question in front of the locker. We knew he wanted to propose.  Kurt didn’t know what Blaine wanted to ask but he was open to whatever it was. He is ready to consider second chances now.

He looked almost eager for what Blaine would ask and it was an easy yes. Stay for Regionals. People can stay in his life.

Then he initiates contact with Blaine, grabbing his arm, and acknowledges what a good week it had been. What started as stressful has now changed.

Then they do another dance number. This time when Kurt comes on the stage, Blaine isn’t pursuing him because he doesn’t have to. Kurt heads for Blaine and joins him at the microphone.

This all gives me hope for the future of Klaine. However, we have one episode left this season. I want them to get back together in this episode. Unfortunately, I’m guessing we will get a question, with no answer. It will be a cliff hanger and we will all suffer until the premiere.

Darren Criss’ shirt bears a frightening resemblance to a classic Star Trek captain’s uniform.

I have been trying to avoid spoilers for the next two episodes as much as possible but I’m only human so I have heard some and I have a theory.

I think Blaine is going to ask Kurt to marry him and then one of two things are going to happen

Either

=> Kurt says Maybe

or

=> Kurt opens his mouth to speak

Either way

=> They cut to closing credits and we spend the whole summer wondering.

I have a new story that I am in the process of posting over on Fanfiction.net called Caramel’s Lollipop. It’s a Hotch/Reid Criminal Minds Fanfiction story.

When I first started reading BDSM, I was pretty certain I would never write such a story. I loved reading BDSM but the culture and such seemed so foreign to me and I didn’t want to get it wrong.

The stories I read were so hot and seemed to have their own set of rules.

Then I met Robert Cage, my writing partner. No this isn’t a tale of my sexual awakening. I’m happily married, thank you very much. But Robert became a good friend and he has been a professional writer for 20 years.

After we learned we had if not mutual, at least compatible, interests in writing we decided to write something together. One of his areas of expertise is hard-core BDSM. He wrote about it and he practiced it.

I had this idea in my head for a Hotch/Reid BDSM story. I got the idea from reading Starofoberon’s excellent Home Demonstration series. (Highly recommended and if she is reading this, more would be welcome.) She had done a story, Conditional Absolution, with Hotch/Reid after Hailey’s death.

My idea put a different spin on the characters since I see Hotch/Reid differently. But I didn’t want to write the story because … BDSM.

But I started playing with the idea in my head and I took Hotch and Reid out. The idea that someone had been in a situation that wasn’t really their fault, but they still felt bad and like they needed to be punished was not Criminal Minds at all. So I created a character (Captain Everett Palmer, US Army Ranger) and pitched the idea to Robert.

This started an intense eight months of writing and learning for me as we collaborated on a book we named Submit for Redemption. I learned so much about both writing and BDSM during that time. I will treasure the experience.

But that idea about Hotch/Reid, the original idea, started popping up in my mind again. I had some knowledge now. I still had a concept and I had a name. Caramel.

My awesome Beta The Shameless Bookworm had once made a comment while Beta’ing a Fic I wrote about Reid and his luscious caramel tresses. When I was writing Spencer Rocket, she suggested we call him Caramel but I was set on Rocket. Then I thought the name might work in a BDSM story.

I knew I had to write the story and call Reid, Caramel.

It took longer to come up with Hotch’s name. It needed to be something that was, well, submissive. I wanted to go with the candy theme, but it couldn’t be too child-like because ewww. I write sex between adults.

I actually started doing Google searches for candies and desserts until I saw lollipops. It was perfect.

The story was a very quick one to write. A lot of the details were so clear in my head. This was a welcome break because my last Fic, Divine Inspiration had really challenged me.

Once I had a draft, Robert kindly let me do some fact checking with him to make sure I got the details right.

So far, the reviews and feedback have been very positive and I feel quite proud of this story.

It reminded me of one of my favorite sayings. Never say Never.